The end is only the start

Why do we assail one just becuase we feel it is for the right reasons? Why do we feel as though we should settle down with what we've been herd and not the truth. Behind every persons deceitful smile is tales of loss, deception and heart brake, with out these things we most likely wouldn't be the people we are today, i can grantee you i wouldn't be. Ive had people who helped me through a lot and i thought they accepted me but instead they really let me down. At the same time, it was good that they did, because it was that final push to me figuring out myself but I wont spread any thanks to them. All of this with them its just dead memories. I probably feel the best i have in a long time as a person. The last 3 years have been an awakening for me. Im standing up for my morals, standing up for myself, but the flip side to that coin is that there is always something inside of me that's going to make people feel like im the dirt under there nails. For most of my life, i tended to base my opinion on myself by what people thought of me. As ive become stronger, i learned to be happy in my own skin and accept that there are fucked up things about me. Ive come to realize We are what we are, we just waste and we ruin and we corrupt, and we destroy, we are our own worst enemy, we are going to be the end of the earth and no one seems to give a shit. The human race is depleating itself of the simple pleasures in life and that everyone is now fake. Fake meaning people, society, everyone, is now pretending to be someone else. We are a disease put on earth and this is the reality of life. We kill ourselves, and or others, because they do not know what is going on in the real world because they are so wrapped up in the world politics and media, they hide reality from people because it will scare them. People are the #1 cause of destruction on this earth and this needs to change, but the sad fact is, we can't people are so unaware... well, Ignorance is bliss I guess...
Not to be so negative, life has picked up for me.

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Why, why, why does the world have to revolve around me?

Im am sick and tired of everyone coming to me with there problems and then having to let them down because i don't have a fucking answerer. I can’t even deal with my own problems let alone yours. Don't get me wrong, i do care but serious your all humans work that shit out for your fucking self. Im sick of holding my tongue and not being able to say what i want to because it will offend or up set someone, i don’t care anymore because i just want to tell it how it is. I mean, its my life and ill live it the way i want to live it. I mean if i cant do that i might as well be in jail or better yet if i cant live how i want to live i might as well be dead.

This is for real and this time i mean it, no more been kicked to the ground and putting up with everyone else shit. I now feel as though I don't give two shits about you or anybody else or what you think. For all of you who already think i have changed and dislike me you just going to think ive changed even more and if you have any problem with it

Kranke essen Ihr Herz….

When you aim for perfection, you discover it's a moving target

Why is it that everyone is finding the need for perfection these days?
With all these creams to fix this and that
operations you can have in a lunch brake, what is it? ill tell you!
its a waist of money! All this just to rise to perfection.

Half the time it wears off or doesn't do what its meant to, then you spend more money trying to fix that so called "problem" even more. Im could never let my self become one of the orange Society or a plastic barbie doll whore. With the Hair extensions, fake tan and cake face make up. Its disgusting, you going to look like a leather bag when your old.
Hand me a football and Guitar any day, that's all i can say.

Wants, Needs and Obsessions

1.Band: Cobra Star ship
2.Song: Shoot Down the stars, Gym Class Heroes
3.Food: Vanilla Ice Cream
4.Color: Pink
5.Shoes: Omahigh - Black/white/regal
6.Person: Ryland Blackinton (I autographed his arm ;D )
7.Dress: Black Cosmic Criny Dress
8.Hair Style:Emo boy hair flicks
9.Accessory: Fairisle Peruvian Hat
10.Something to do: Making You tube Videos!

The Ship That Never Sinks, Well So They Say.....

Every were i look im seeing Friendships and Relationships falling to pieces, including my own for that matter. It brings me to think, am i doing something wrong?

But i have noticed some of the people who have caused this are "jumpers"
Jumpers is a term i have come up with for people you jump from best friend to best friend or from group to group. This could happen yearly or monthly or even possibly weekly. Me personally I don't like jumpers, im not one my self. But i guess if there happy doing what they are doing, there life is gonna suck! If that makes any Sense at all.

As for relationships WTF is going on with mine. TOTAL GAYNESS that's what!
All it does is brings me down and makes me angry. Im assume im not the only one out there
that's having relationship problems, after all like my sister said it seems like it is "brake up season"